PRO on crastinating.

AgagaGugu. I don't really feel like writing since I don't really have anything to write about, except boring shit, but I really feel like procrastinating, and that's exactly what I'm doing atm, ahahahaha. I will have nightmares. HNG.

Uhuh. I have always thought people take compliments as I do - they're just like.. words. Like they don't mean shit, it doesn't make you feel any different or better or anything if someone tells you some compliment it's like.. "You're pretty!", it doesn't make me feel pretty, it's just something someone says and something I kind of feel like I just HAVE TO answer thanks too to be polite you know, but in your head you're actually just thinking "Yea, but that's just what you think.." or "Pppppft, ass." u know. You are just completely denying it and like yeah. I have always thought EVERYONE always thinks like that when getting compliments. It felt like actually being able to take a compliment just is something I've made up in my head, like that there's actually people who get happy from getting compliments and who actually feel cute or pretty or whatever you tell 'em. But I actually learned yesterday that apparently, some people do take compliments the way I think it should be and it was just.. cool. Since I didn't think that shit actually happened so haha, it was nice. I think I'll start giving more compliments to people :')

We went shopping today. I bought some fabric for a b-day present I'm making, a pair of like.. short.. boots.. ? I have no idea what they're actually called, but they look really adorable.. :'D And I finally got myself a pair of those shorts thingies with the suspenders/braces whatever, you know. Been wanting a pair for about a year but I haven't dared try them on since I'm afraid my butt's too big.. Haha.
I also bought Pan's Labyrinth, the movie you know, haven't watched it yet but I hope it's good!

I also received the manga books I bought a few weeks ago; Hischool of the Dead 4-5 ~ I decided I'd continue collecting one or two manga series, so I decided I'd go with HOTD and Higurashi.. probably. So yyuupp.

Uh oh. We have a project going on in school atm, it's like.. we could either make an animation, a short film, a photo series or.. uh. whatever really, and yeah. I decided to make an animation since I've had this must to animate for so long, and I had first planned on being by myself but then Laura came up with and animation idea and so I paired up with her haha. Would've been so much easier to make an animation by my own since no one would have expectations and ahaha it wouldn't necessary have to get done HAHA. But now I feel kind of a lot of pressure.. XDD oh well, I'll see what I can make of it.. I think it's going to be short as fuck since we have like.. next week still time to make it or something.. someone said something about that we didn't have to finish it to Friday but since I was asleep I have no idea what they said.. aaahh. Oh me.

Aaaand, I really want to continue on that dragon pic of mine aaaah. I want to get it done cause I want to make it amazinguuuu. I think that's what I'll do after this muahahaha.
Oh well. I'm done. BAI.
- Niko

ps. Blogger has the loveliest text editor thingy.... GAH. I fucking hate this shit. Was gonna post another pic but it just wont go where it's supposed to so fuck that.

OREGON

Ohai!
Today has been slightly stressy, I'm tired as fuck too so yuppieeeyeeaah!
But it's been quite a nice day, since the sun's been shining and it's been waaarm and shiet.

Today I've been to school, and then we had PE annnd yeah. It's always nice to have a little shorter days on mondays~ Oh and we got some homework where we're like supposed to uh, write how much we sleep, what we eat and how much me exercise a day for a week and then we have to analyse how we.. felt. Or like, yeah, if shit could be better and stuff. I think it's a really nice thing so yyaay~
Anyway, after school I visited duh store, had to get some milk and cheese and shiet, nomnom. And when I got home I cleaned my room. and finally got rid of all the dust and shit on my make up table aaaaarh, can't stand it. And I cleaned my mirrors. And woops, I forgot the windows and the other mirror.. I'll do it tomorrow..
I went on a walk with mah dawg and then I went to singing class/lessons, w/e, and next time I'll be having it for a whole hour since I switched with another person who's also at the singin' lessons uh cause she couldn't go next time and this way she'll not miss anything and yuppie, cool.
My teacher also asked me if I wanted to sing on this.. thing she has in April. Like. On stage. In front of people. I'M LIKE HELL NAW. But then I started thinking and now I can't decide whether I want to or not, but uh. We'll have to see.
AND OH I'm so angry at u gais, y doesn't anyone on the internet has music sheets or chords or whatever to "Run, wolf warrior, run" by Yoko Kanno Aaa I want it cause I wanna sing it ;_; ANYONE!?

Uuuhh. YEAH. I'm currently working on a new piece, worst timing tho sobsob since I'll soon have to start animating, and I just got a shit loads of other things I'd need to do too, so I wont really have time to work on it but uuh. It's a pic of a dragon and I really like it.. and I really wanna continue it.. :'D I hope I'll be able to fit in some time for the coloring.. mmmh. Could make another youtube vid too.. mmmhh. YEAH.

yay for crappy phone pics.. 


Umum. I think that's about it.
and omagad Iactuallypostedsomethingonthatforuman KYAA!~
- Niko

ventilate-

Uh. I don't understand people. I don't get how they can be so.. open. on the internet.
I MEAN. For me, it's a fucking impossibility, and it kinda feels like I might've misunderstood the internet since uh, it's supposed to be a place where shy people can go say shit to people cause it's the internet and the real world BUT IT'S NOT. I mean.
Even if it IS the internet, the people in front of that screen of theirs ARE STILL PEOPLE and thus, I think the situation is kind of the same as real life, or? I mean, they're still them.. they still probably react and and uh. Think as they would irl. I mean. I mean. They don't .. UH.
People are just so cool. ;_; I cannot. and I just can't understand how these "I'm so shy uguu" 12 year ols DARE GO TALK to people like Tydii or Dethra or or.. JEN oror.. someone cool, and still be cool about it and HOW THE HELL they dare post in a FORUM filled with these amazing animal artist and and and I DON'T SEE IT. Still they're like uhuh I don't dare say hi to you and I'm not currently bashing anyone tho it undoubtedly kinda sounds so BUT YOU ARE GETTING ME WRONG. I just feel.. anxious. Scared. Frustrated. retarded. ö___ö HERP.
Unhh. I joined a forum called Tassutopia, and another one called Ketunleipä recently and PPPPFF- I can't. I have made ONE post in each one of them and I have been shitting my pants sujknfk I can't. I- I often find shit I'd like to post an reply to but I CAN'T my whole body trembles in shame, BEFORE I'VE EVEN SAID ANYTHING. Iiiiiii- I can just imagine how.. uh. .. they'd hate me. How they'd think I'm odd cause I'm.. me. I'm not completely Finnish. I'm not Swedish either. I'm not cool. I'm not mature for my age. HERPHERP I'm just no one, just some one and they'd hate me. They'd hate me and eat me and have me for brunch. I'm so afraid of them ;__;
aaarr. Calm down.
Uhoh. I feel kinda lonely. Like. I feel I have no one really to talk too. I admit it. I feel aaaa. No one ever says shit to me. I feel horrible. I suhjkfs 
And I feel like the worst friend ever ever and ever. lived. ever. Don't care about my English atm, I'm not even trying since I'm emotional. ahaha. sob.
yeh but yeh, I feel like I'm the worst friend ever since it feels like I fucking abandon everyoneee. Like. I just leave all my friends to rot. Tho I. I- I kinda feel like they don't even care so uh oh. FRIENDS, fucking tell me when you care cause I dunno when you do uhuhuhuh I don't know what it's supposed to be like when a friend cares aaaa ;_; I- II.. HHng. I dunno even who i can count as a friend anymore. I.. can't AAAAAAAAAAgfhjakljö pl. I need someone on the interwebs to talk to since I don't like talking irl and and Vallu doesn't like to talk on msn since it's kinda dead and I mean I talk about those most deep shit with her and stuff irl but I want to have someone on the interwebs to just uhoh. I dunno. Chat with. Think with. Gahh.
VALLU I LABU YOU we btw had our first year anniversary monday this week so yay for us, I love you hun<3
Uuuuh. yeah.
I hate how discriminating shiet's on Fiesta. Uh. I mean. If you play as anything else than a cleric, people will peolly just hate you and want you dead. If you play like a cleric, people just want to be with you cause you're a cleric, cause you can heal and shti AND I FEEL, that's kinda unfair. being treated like shit just cause you don't have the ability to restorate. Not fair people. :'B I get so sad when I play as and archer and jkbs,dalk people never want me in their parties. I DON'T SUCK just ebcause I'm and archer ;__; ARCHER'S ARE COOL shaadaap. I mean, why would they create a character if they'd be completely worthless. Shut it, I'm good in my own way. You just don't realize.

Done ranting.
- Niko

shoop da woop

Hng. I haven't been writing for a while since I found my diary, and decided to finally fucking fill it up so that I can start using my new one, woop. But it's still not filled so uh. yeah.

Having a bad time again, annoying. I feel like shit and shit's shit and I'm tired. I just want to be okay. Hukejfsl
Living is such a pain, most of the time.

Waking up in the morning, trying to get done for school in time, but still end up coming late, never do shit you'd need to do and then hate yourself for being so stupid. Can I please just be alone for sometime..

aaaahhh hell. I wish I could listen to music as loud as I please to .. listen the pain away without killing my ears. fml

Picture post from the past few weeks..

Yay, got the lens cap for my moms old camera~ Thanks Johsu~

Unboxing my PS3

More unboxing, and a pic of the PS3 and Skyrim that I also recently bought.

Unhealthy shiet, u don't even wanna.

A charcoal pic I made in school last week. It's kinda big aandd. uh. yeh. It's a Tiger, not a bear. sob.

I dunno what more o write, just felt like I need to get shit posted or I'll get even angstier about that.. Now I'll continue doing something. I really want to eat again. sobsob.

- Niko

lalalalaa~~~~ av nån random person som totally kanske e Hanna.

jag har funderat på de där med fb, funderade om jag skulle vara trevligare uttan det, funderar på om hur jag better mej där påvärkar hur jag better mej på riktigt, men så va jag nog säkert elak före jag hadde facebook också, så nu e jag igen inne på att det är människor som dett är fel på, mina gamla vänner, folk som tycker det är en bra ide att tatuera tribals vi nån bullshit tatuerare .där är dert igen :D le fuuuu nu ska ja gå o va snäll

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I'm sick. Gonna go take a shower nao.

- Niko

Annoying.

Gh. I feel so annoyed. and I want to be sick tomorrow. I don't want to need to go to school. I have such school.. whatever it's called, atm. Like. I atm never feel like going to school, not even when I've had enough sleep.
I have a bit of a fever today, and I hope it'll keep til tomorrow, ahhahaha. I love fever. Oh all the things I could do at home. I love home. I love not needing to do anything.

Uh oh. Today in school we had a veery creative day, we watched MLP, Powerpuff Girls and Tokyo Mew Mew! Tho we did do some drawing and paining ... NOT KIDDING. Ahaha, no but it was a very lazy day.

And I was supposed to clean my room today, but I didn't. I'm tired. And I made really disgusting Onigiris. never again. 
Uh oh. I don't really have anything proper to say cause I'm tired and I just want to... ijfslkndkfnbjkbdlkNAJK, for a while. PLEASE. AGH.

OHOH btw, Minty's having this cool GIVEAWAY and you guys should totally check it out! She's giving away LOADS of nail stuff, some jewelry, fake eyelashes .. etc. there's a whole bunch'a different things so, I think you should just take a look yourself, and maybe even join the giveaway! Who knows!
I also have a link in the sidebar if you want to check it out later and don't wanna have to scroll down to this post.. :''3


YUP.
- Niko