PROJECT 9 ~ DAY I

Yay, once again that goddamn day has managed to change before I had a chance to update my blog.. goddamit. ANYWAY.
Befroe I start talking about project 9 I just have to say... Congratz to 3 months, me and Valter. We're just awesome like that!

Love you babeeh~ ♥

Back to the topic. The first day of Project 9 has gone..... okay I suppose? I've got 13 sketch pages done, of which 2 are inked. Wait. Did I ever tell you what my project is? No?
Okay, so I'm gonna try to draw 50 comic pages in 3 days, it's not impossible but very hard, but I'm gonna cheat. We have this weekend + 1 extra day, so yay for working hard and not sleeping. Coffé is my friend. My belly does not like. Anyway, I took a few photos as progressing, cause we have to show somekind of work in progress or what we did w/e in school so yeha, prolly gonna make a vid with pics of me working and maybe print the comic pages if possible..

First I put my mp3 on...

... Then I had to clean my desk so I could work.

Once that was done I started working.

Traaaciiiinnng...

.. Uh.. sketch page?

YAY! 11 pages sketched!

Done inking~

And then last but no least, a pretty pic of me from today. 

Sorry my boobs are so distracting.. ! And I apparently have a bird tattoo on one of them.. and I'm apparently also Harry Potter. With a mustache. And no, of course I didn't Photoshop this pic! ... or?
- Niko

How are you? ♥

.. Every time I'm supposed to start writing a new blog entry, it just feels horribly hard and impossible, just like when you have a white paper in front of you and maybe a slight idea or non at all of what you're going to draw or create. Yeah, that feeling. Tho, it usually disappears as fast as I've gotten a few lines in, right about. Now. :')


So, we can start of with Bakacon, I should've updated about it before, I know, sorry, but I haven't really had time. School and everything has been killing me, you seriously wouldn't have wanted to be around me. .. You still don't want to. Many reasons.
Back to Bakacon, it was great fun! Sure, I hadn't slept almost at all for weeks before the con, just 4 hours the night before the con, then sat on a train for 6h and killed my shoulders, neck and back with carrying 3, sometimes 4, very heavy bags from one place to another, but hey, besides all that it was awesome! :''D

Me and Amanda

I was there with my friends, as I mentioned, and it was her first con, and I'm really glad she liked it, and it was probably one of the best cons I've been too, because of her. Normally i hang with so much people at cons and I keep changing groups and running from one place to another but this time, I was with one and the same person for the 2 days the con lasted, and we pretty much always had something to say cause we haven't know each other for too long and it was her first con so, yeah. And she's in general a very nice person, so it was very nice!


On the first day of con, we woke up like 5AM something to get done and get to the train that would take us to Pieksämäki, and once we arrived there we headed of to the con where we got in and changed to our cosplays on a toilet. Convenient. And then we just enjoyed the day, until like 6PM when we headed to the sleeping place. We changed and went on a hunt for food and thanks to Amanda's GPS we found a Hesburger where we finally got soemthing to eat. 

Hesburger ♥

Rest of the evening we spent just reading manga pretty much, and eating pocky ofc, then we headed off to the land of dreams...
The next morning we got done for the con, got our ridiculously heavy bags and headed back to the place where the con was. Shitty as my costumes always are, it started falling apart, and once we had arrived at the con my pumpkin fell of.. We did a quick fix and saved it. Uh, we did the same as the day before, haha. And then around 3PM we got to our train and got back home safely.

That face everytime my cosplay broke. More.

Many took pictures of us, and I'm very glad Amanda got to experience it cause she totally deserved it, such an amazing cosplay AND It's her FIRST! She's awesome, eh?


I bought some awesome stuff at Bakacon, ofc;
- 1,2 High School of the Dead (manga)
- 1,3-6 Tarot Café (manga)
- Higurashi 10 (manga)
- Tokyo Gore Police (dvd)
- Shitloads of Pocky!

some pics from the con

An aweosme Panty (Panty & Stocking w/ Garterbelt) cosplayer ♥

Hanyuu & Rena from Higurashi ♥

Scanty & Kneesock, also from Panty & Stocking ♥

Picture spam of us ♥

Thanks to Harakka for taking this lovely picture of us!

Go check out her blog!

I think that's about it about Bakacon.. Uh what else. We're pretty much done with school, or well. we still have this and next week, but I wont really be in school, we have Project 9 so we get to work at home. Gosh, it feels so odd to know that you'll be done with basic school in just about a week.. wtf.. scary.
Today we also put up our art project works, I took some pics, not the best ones but yeah, I'll probably get a better pic of my painting sometime when I get to take it home.

Also, we had a fashion show kindaish thing, cause we had a project in sewing / sewing class that we'd design a collection and then sew at least 2 of the things in our collection, then wear it on a photo shoot and up on the catwalk, went like shit but I hope there's some good photos, my teacher told me that pretty much all of my photos were good so.. I'm just gonna trust her on that one.


I'm so in love with a few Gaga songs, or actually almost the whole new album, I've been listening to it all day and I just gotta say, Baby, I was born this way, and I'm still in love with Judas.


Also, today, I went to the movies with Valter to watch the new Pirates of the Caribbean, it was awesome! 3D and all, I love 3D movies ♥ I had a pair of free movie tickets so we got popcorn and soda for free too, totally worth it :')

I think that's about it for now, gonna try to get some updates done during Project 9, sorry for not being too active! .. and for the crazy picture spam.
- Niko

COSPLAY!~

Oh gawd. it's been forever since last time, again, hasn't it?
Wish I'd have time enough and interesting life enough to write about it in my blog ahaha :'D Maybe i'd get some readers too if the case was so.
Umm. Nothing new really, just.. much more stress. Right now my stuff to do list looks like this;

- Math test Tomorrow

- Physics test 12.5

- Mother tongue project done 'til 13.5

- Cosplay done 'til 13.5

- BAKACON 14-15.5

- Biology test 20.5

- Entrance examination 20.5

Yeah.. I haven't read to the math test, but it really doesn't matter that much, the physics test I find a bit more important so I'll try to learn something to it, cause I srsly at the moment have no idea what we've been talking about (been drawing every class... <__<'''). The MT project is... mmeeeh, going down hill cause I have no idea what or how to write it (we're supposed to write about some books) and.. I've made half of my first version, started on a second, we'll see what I end up with..
The cosplay.. Actually I could show you some pics;

So, I'm going to cosplay Lambdadelta from Umineko no Naku Koro Ni, and she looks like this;

So yeah, quite a lot to do yeh?

Okay, I'm pretty much done with the upper dress part, just need to get the zipper in and ofc make all the ribbons and the pumpkin, I have the pearl thing but I'll attach it later.

That was some progress pic I took after attaching the flounce so I'm a bit more ... done than on that pic :''))

Um yeah, so I have the hat, the.. long.. pink skirt thingy and the white kirtle left. And ofc all the ribbons. And the pumpkin. And some beads, that I'll start working on when I'm done with this post. I have done like.. 3 ribbons, only 12 more to go, yay. AND I have the hugest prob with finding the right shoes, mehh :'( and yees I also have the socks and the.. red white sock things whatever :''D But yeah, Tomorrow I'll go on a last check for shoes, I'll just take the first best ones that are red and look somewhat alike. And I'll also buy more red for the ... bows.. yeah. I don't dare cut my red riding hood halloween costume, that'd be a bit sad. 

UUH anywaaay. what else what else.. Oh yeah, It's gonna be really fun to go to Bakacon, I'm going there with my friend, it's gonna be her first con and she's going to cosplay Bernkastel from the same series~ I'll bring my camera, try to get some pics at least, maybe make an update about it~

I've also decided to start selling Kigurumis to anyone who wants to order one and tried to advertise it on some places, with some success. Haven't got in any orders yet but, there's been a lot of positive response so.. I hope I'll get something sold!

I also got a summer job for a few days, I'll be taking photos for a company so.. I hope that'll be interesting!

Until next time!

- Niko

Hard times.

.. HI.

I need to start coming up with random greetings so I can start my blog entries in cool ways... .__.

Anyways, just felt like making a quick update, nothing new really. Still drowning in stress, and still feeling like shit. Gonna go out driving with my dear friend Anni in just a second, gonna try to get my mind off things, and she said she really needed to do the same so yeah.. actually it was the other way around, either way, we're both feeling a bit down right now and school isn't making it better. 

Angst of an Artist © Me

Tho I did get a 9 (10 is the highest score) on my Biology test so I'm happy and a .. 7 ? 8? can't remember, on my Physics test so yeah, I think I did well, tho there's still a lot more to come = gah.

... My lil' finger looks ridiculous, what? Uh yeah. idk nothing more I suppose.

I really love it when there's friends like Anni. Not only is she one of my oldest friends but we're also very much alike (we usually think the same and feel the same) and.. she's just a very nice friend in all other ways. It's funny how I realize it at times, not all the time. Stupid me.

- Niko

IT'S.. It was FRIDAY FRIDAY!

Hahaa okay so I finally had a life for like one day! Wohoo, yay for me. So I wanted to make a blog post about it, with pictures and all, pretty like that. But guess what? I didn't have my cam with me... GGRRH. anyway, so I drew like 2 pictures on paint, hope you like them!

Kai, Valter & Me

So it was markkinat in Jeppis and I went there with my dear friend Kai and my lovely sweetheart Valter~ Tho the markkinat weren't really our reason to go there, but hey whatever. 
So first me and Valter headed off to the flea market, I was on a hunt for red shoes to my Lambdadelta cosplay, but unfortunately I didn't fund a shit, but on the other hand Valter found a cd and some candy, day saved! During the time we were walking around on the flea market Kai went to a store where they sell instruments, music, games etc and bought some plektrums, he's just started playing guitar, good luck to him!
Uh, we met up somewhere and headed to town. As expected there was a lot of people there cause of the markkinat and all, and I had one of those days when I almost started panicking cause of the folk masses but hmm. We bought food and left to some more quiet place to eat. Kebabaaaa~

Korvgörans kebab with french fries and sallad, yum.

Then we... .. I dunno, we just kinda walked around in stores and stuff, later on we went to a café where we met a lot of people Valter happened to know but in the end they all left.. and so did we! 
It was strating to get cold and the stores were closing and we didn't really have anywhere to go so Valter phones one of his friends asking if we could come over and she said sure, but before going there we actually met Anni, Johanna and Janica! Yeah, fun times, fun times.. :''D
Okay well, we headed off to Alex and Ulrik (yes it's two girls, shush) (and no they don't live together) and there we just chilled, watched tv and listened to music. And I fell asleep. On Valter. Hurrr~♥ There's nothing more lovely than that... ~
Then around 00:25 we left to catch our bus which would arrive at 00:55. Kai and me got on the buss and left Jeppis to hit Kaapeli town, end of story.


Anyway, it was great fun, mostly when I'm out in town nothing ever happens and it's dead boring, but this time it was actually quite nice (and the cherry on top of the cake was ofc sleeping on Valter, hurrrdurrrhurrr.. ♥) so yeah, hope there'll be many fridays (or just anydays) of the same kind in the future~ or even better ones, ooh.


I'm off to bed now, chooh.
- Niko

I herd you liek...

KIDMUDS.
Yeah, I'm gonna write a blog entry completely randomly, not planned at all and I have no idea what I'm gonna talk about, cause nothing new has really happened. Nothing new really ever happens, but hey whatever.
Gah, 8 weeks to go and school will be over, done. Done with my 9 years in basic school. Kinda sad but still exciting and all I mean. I have very fused feelings about this. Cause it means I'll start in a new school, new kids, new teachers, new class, new everything. Kinda scares me but yeah, I kinda also look forward to it (ofc).
But during these 8 weeks we still have lots to do in school! Seriously lots, I wont type anything down here cause I don't want to think about ALL the stuff I'd need to do, my head would explode and I'd get a panic... thingy, I'd get extremely stressed, probably start to cry, so yeah. Ill try to keep my calm and take one thing at a time, not thing about them all too much~
One of these things is a physics test, we'll have it tomorrow and I feel like I know most of the stuff which probably equals in me not actually knowing anything cause.. Usually when you feel like you don't know anything you know the most stuff so yeah.. But I'll spend rest of the evening studying and trying to learn everything I still don't know~ Wish me luck~
Hmm, what else.. There was something I was gonna write but I can't remember... Anyway, so this was just a... quick updatish thing? I just felt like writing, sowwy... <__<
- Niko

dreams.

Olé olé!~
Woah, it's been a while again! Like.. a month and a half? Whoops, sorry!
But hey, don't blame me, blame Valter. He's been stealing all my free time lately (not that I mind...) so yup, not my fault :') 
So, during the time I haven't been writing anything, I've had a wonderful trip to Gran Canaria with my mom! Too bad I don't have any pics from the trip on my computer and I'm too lazy to go get the camera, but yeah. It was a very sunny and hot vacation, loved it! Tho I did burn my back a bit and there were these very creepy men everywhere flirting with me... Anyway.

Oh yes, and like a week ago, me and Valter had our 1 month anniversary, I ♥ you hun~

Moving on to something I always seem to write about; loving yourself and blah blah stuff like that. But that's cause I think of it so much, cause I don't have a life and cause people don't love themselves enough these days. Just saying.

It's lame how I always angst over nothing, how I angst over my body, when I have nothing to angst about. I angst about it, cause my friends have told me "You have fat legs", "You have horrible eyebrows", "You've gotten a bit fatter, haven't you?", "Your hair is horrible" etc. Seriously, why should I even care, if I think I look okay? There's absolutely nothing wrong with me. No, I'm not saying I'm perfect, I'm just saying there's nothing wrong with me, you get what I'm saying? ... That sounds really egoistic doesn't it?

Well you see, I'm not perfect, but there's nothing wrong with me. I'm beautiful the way I am cause I'm me. Everyones beautiful in their own way, actually it's a bit wrong to say that "no one is perfect", cause I think.. everyone's perfect in their own way, right? 

Uh, my mind's a bit messed, I'm hella tired but anyway. I mean, I have a lot of thought around this, for example that people wouldn't listen to me when I tell them they're beautiful and that they should love themselves cause I have such a nice body or something, but I do kinda get that they have such a hard time accepting themselves, considering that I have a hard time doing that and I absolutely CAN NOT imagine accepting myself if I'd look like most people (this sounds very rude, doesn't it.. ? well I didn't mean it that way x__x'). 

... Sorry this blog entry just got all messed up and stuff haha. Why don't I ever have anything interesting to write about!? I should write down thoughts...

Oh I could mention, I have this .. leftie hand project going on, I'll try to learn to write and draw with my left hand! .. Which makes me think of broken dreams and how stupid it's to be affected by other peoples opinions.

You know what guys, besides loving yourself you should also stick to your dreams. No matter if people just fucking laugh at you and tell you it's IMPOSSIBLE and shit like that, cause we all know it's not impossible. Everything is possible and you should keep believing in yourself. I mean, if no one else is there to support your  dreams, I will be there to support them. Holding on to your dreams is important, cause dreams usually are stuff you really want to do, so yeah. You shouldn't let go of them no matter what.

And oh, you should also dream of the ... impossible. I mean, seriously impossible. Like flying on a cow or shit like that, I don't know, but don't make them dreams that needs to come true, keep them as dreams that you just dream for the joy of dreaming, ya know. uh anyway.

Jealousy is a stupid feeling, I am gonna get rid off it.

- Niko