COSPLAY!~

Oh gawd. it's been forever since last time, again, hasn't it?
Wish I'd have time enough and interesting life enough to write about it in my blog ahaha :'D Maybe i'd get some readers too if the case was so.
Umm. Nothing new really, just.. much more stress. Right now my stuff to do list looks like this;

- Math test Tomorrow

- Physics test 12.5

- Mother tongue project done 'til 13.5

- Cosplay done 'til 13.5

- BAKACON 14-15.5

- Biology test 20.5

- Entrance examination 20.5

Yeah.. I haven't read to the math test, but it really doesn't matter that much, the physics test I find a bit more important so I'll try to learn something to it, cause I srsly at the moment have no idea what we've been talking about (been drawing every class... <__<'''). The MT project is... mmeeeh, going down hill cause I have no idea what or how to write it (we're supposed to write about some books) and.. I've made half of my first version, started on a second, we'll see what I end up with..
The cosplay.. Actually I could show you some pics;

So, I'm going to cosplay Lambdadelta from Umineko no Naku Koro Ni, and she looks like this;

So yeah, quite a lot to do yeh?

Okay, I'm pretty much done with the upper dress part, just need to get the zipper in and ofc make all the ribbons and the pumpkin, I have the pearl thing but I'll attach it later.

That was some progress pic I took after attaching the flounce so I'm a bit more ... done than on that pic :''))

Um yeah, so I have the hat, the.. long.. pink skirt thingy and the white kirtle left. And ofc all the ribbons. And the pumpkin. And some beads, that I'll start working on when I'm done with this post. I have done like.. 3 ribbons, only 12 more to go, yay. AND I have the hugest prob with finding the right shoes, mehh :'( and yees I also have the socks and the.. red white sock things whatever :''D But yeah, Tomorrow I'll go on a last check for shoes, I'll just take the first best ones that are red and look somewhat alike. And I'll also buy more red for the ... bows.. yeah. I don't dare cut my red riding hood halloween costume, that'd be a bit sad. 

UUH anywaaay. what else what else.. Oh yeah, It's gonna be really fun to go to Bakacon, I'm going there with my friend, it's gonna be her first con and she's going to cosplay Bernkastel from the same series~ I'll bring my camera, try to get some pics at least, maybe make an update about it~

I've also decided to start selling Kigurumis to anyone who wants to order one and tried to advertise it on some places, with some success. Haven't got in any orders yet but, there's been a lot of positive response so.. I hope I'll get something sold!

I also got a summer job for a few days, I'll be taking photos for a company so.. I hope that'll be interesting!

Until next time!

- Niko

Hard times.

.. HI.

I need to start coming up with random greetings so I can start my blog entries in cool ways... .__.

Anyways, just felt like making a quick update, nothing new really. Still drowning in stress, and still feeling like shit. Gonna go out driving with my dear friend Anni in just a second, gonna try to get my mind off things, and she said she really needed to do the same so yeah.. actually it was the other way around, either way, we're both feeling a bit down right now and school isn't making it better. 

Angst of an Artist © Me

Tho I did get a 9 (10 is the highest score) on my Biology test so I'm happy and a .. 7 ? 8? can't remember, on my Physics test so yeah, I think I did well, tho there's still a lot more to come = gah.

... My lil' finger looks ridiculous, what? Uh yeah. idk nothing more I suppose.

I really love it when there's friends like Anni. Not only is she one of my oldest friends but we're also very much alike (we usually think the same and feel the same) and.. she's just a very nice friend in all other ways. It's funny how I realize it at times, not all the time. Stupid me.

- Niko

IT'S.. It was FRIDAY FRIDAY!

Hahaa okay so I finally had a life for like one day! Wohoo, yay for me. So I wanted to make a blog post about it, with pictures and all, pretty like that. But guess what? I didn't have my cam with me... GGRRH. anyway, so I drew like 2 pictures on paint, hope you like them!

Kai, Valter & Me

So it was markkinat in Jeppis and I went there with my dear friend Kai and my lovely sweetheart Valter~ Tho the markkinat weren't really our reason to go there, but hey whatever. 
So first me and Valter headed off to the flea market, I was on a hunt for red shoes to my Lambdadelta cosplay, but unfortunately I didn't fund a shit, but on the other hand Valter found a cd and some candy, day saved! During the time we were walking around on the flea market Kai went to a store where they sell instruments, music, games etc and bought some plektrums, he's just started playing guitar, good luck to him!
Uh, we met up somewhere and headed to town. As expected there was a lot of people there cause of the markkinat and all, and I had one of those days when I almost started panicking cause of the folk masses but hmm. We bought food and left to some more quiet place to eat. Kebabaaaa~

Korvgörans kebab with french fries and sallad, yum.

Then we... .. I dunno, we just kinda walked around in stores and stuff, later on we went to a café where we met a lot of people Valter happened to know but in the end they all left.. and so did we! 
It was strating to get cold and the stores were closing and we didn't really have anywhere to go so Valter phones one of his friends asking if we could come over and she said sure, but before going there we actually met Anni, Johanna and Janica! Yeah, fun times, fun times.. :''D
Okay well, we headed off to Alex and Ulrik (yes it's two girls, shush) (and no they don't live together) and there we just chilled, watched tv and listened to music. And I fell asleep. On Valter. Hurrr~♥ There's nothing more lovely than that... ~
Then around 00:25 we left to catch our bus which would arrive at 00:55. Kai and me got on the buss and left Jeppis to hit Kaapeli town, end of story.


Anyway, it was great fun, mostly when I'm out in town nothing ever happens and it's dead boring, but this time it was actually quite nice (and the cherry on top of the cake was ofc sleeping on Valter, hurrrdurrrhurrr.. ♥) so yeah, hope there'll be many fridays (or just anydays) of the same kind in the future~ or even better ones, ooh.


I'm off to bed now, chooh.
- Niko

I herd you liek...

KIDMUDS.
Yeah, I'm gonna write a blog entry completely randomly, not planned at all and I have no idea what I'm gonna talk about, cause nothing new has really happened. Nothing new really ever happens, but hey whatever.
Gah, 8 weeks to go and school will be over, done. Done with my 9 years in basic school. Kinda sad but still exciting and all I mean. I have very fused feelings about this. Cause it means I'll start in a new school, new kids, new teachers, new class, new everything. Kinda scares me but yeah, I kinda also look forward to it (ofc).
But during these 8 weeks we still have lots to do in school! Seriously lots, I wont type anything down here cause I don't want to think about ALL the stuff I'd need to do, my head would explode and I'd get a panic... thingy, I'd get extremely stressed, probably start to cry, so yeah. Ill try to keep my calm and take one thing at a time, not thing about them all too much~
One of these things is a physics test, we'll have it tomorrow and I feel like I know most of the stuff which probably equals in me not actually knowing anything cause.. Usually when you feel like you don't know anything you know the most stuff so yeah.. But I'll spend rest of the evening studying and trying to learn everything I still don't know~ Wish me luck~
Hmm, what else.. There was something I was gonna write but I can't remember... Anyway, so this was just a... quick updatish thing? I just felt like writing, sowwy... <__<
- Niko

dreams.

Olé olé!~
Woah, it's been a while again! Like.. a month and a half? Whoops, sorry!
But hey, don't blame me, blame Valter. He's been stealing all my free time lately (not that I mind...) so yup, not my fault :') 
So, during the time I haven't been writing anything, I've had a wonderful trip to Gran Canaria with my mom! Too bad I don't have any pics from the trip on my computer and I'm too lazy to go get the camera, but yeah. It was a very sunny and hot vacation, loved it! Tho I did burn my back a bit and there were these very creepy men everywhere flirting with me... Anyway.

Oh yes, and like a week ago, me and Valter had our 1 month anniversary, I ♥ you hun~

Moving on to something I always seem to write about; loving yourself and blah blah stuff like that. But that's cause I think of it so much, cause I don't have a life and cause people don't love themselves enough these days. Just saying.

It's lame how I always angst over nothing, how I angst over my body, when I have nothing to angst about. I angst about it, cause my friends have told me "You have fat legs", "You have horrible eyebrows", "You've gotten a bit fatter, haven't you?", "Your hair is horrible" etc. Seriously, why should I even care, if I think I look okay? There's absolutely nothing wrong with me. No, I'm not saying I'm perfect, I'm just saying there's nothing wrong with me, you get what I'm saying? ... That sounds really egoistic doesn't it?

Well you see, I'm not perfect, but there's nothing wrong with me. I'm beautiful the way I am cause I'm me. Everyones beautiful in their own way, actually it's a bit wrong to say that "no one is perfect", cause I think.. everyone's perfect in their own way, right? 

Uh, my mind's a bit messed, I'm hella tired but anyway. I mean, I have a lot of thought around this, for example that people wouldn't listen to me when I tell them they're beautiful and that they should love themselves cause I have such a nice body or something, but I do kinda get that they have such a hard time accepting themselves, considering that I have a hard time doing that and I absolutely CAN NOT imagine accepting myself if I'd look like most people (this sounds very rude, doesn't it.. ? well I didn't mean it that way x__x'). 

... Sorry this blog entry just got all messed up and stuff haha. Why don't I ever have anything interesting to write about!? I should write down thoughts...

Oh I could mention, I have this .. leftie hand project going on, I'll try to learn to write and draw with my left hand! .. Which makes me think of broken dreams and how stupid it's to be affected by other peoples opinions.

You know what guys, besides loving yourself you should also stick to your dreams. No matter if people just fucking laugh at you and tell you it's IMPOSSIBLE and shit like that, cause we all know it's not impossible. Everything is possible and you should keep believing in yourself. I mean, if no one else is there to support your  dreams, I will be there to support them. Holding on to your dreams is important, cause dreams usually are stuff you really want to do, so yeah. You shouldn't let go of them no matter what.

And oh, you should also dream of the ... impossible. I mean, seriously impossible. Like flying on a cow or shit like that, I don't know, but don't make them dreams that needs to come true, keep them as dreams that you just dream for the joy of dreaming, ya know. uh anyway.

Jealousy is a stupid feeling, I am gonna get rid off it.

- Niko

Greetings from Brennenburg

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! ♥♥♥♥

I know you all love this day so much, oh all you single people. Why you hatin? You should see the good things with being single! There's no one who keeps phoning you when you're kicking ass in Black Ops, and you can go have one night stands all you want and no ones feeling will be hurt! Tho I suppose it is the drama you search for, cause your lives are too boring without it. Either way.

I don't hate Valentines Day, not anymore. It's just a day when people should show their love to others or something. Actually, I'm just too lazy to care about the whole day, so it's just like any other monday or sunday or wednesday to me. But meh.

And of course, because it's valentines day the topic is love. Or friendship. or.. anything to do with the whole Love thing.

This morning I woke up and I had this... odd.. nice.. funny... feeling, I have no idea what it was but I think it was caused by this one person who had been haunting my dreams all night, haha. Really, every second of the night he was on my mind. If I was sleeping, he was in my dreams, if I was awake, I would automaticly think of him. No can do, I don't mind. So when I woke up, sometime about.. 9AM with the sun shining and the birds singing and (okay, birds singing = crows cawing......) uh idk. I just lied there, enjoying the feeling. It was so nice.. so.. .. Can a nice feeling really be described with 'it felt like there was a huge rock on me'?... It felt like ... awesome. Really, there isn't much you can say about it without sounding totally odd. 

I could just say I FELT LOVE but no I can't cause I have no idea what love feels like, and really, I don't think Love is a thing anyone can tell you how it feel.. and I suppose love feels different for everyone, so how can you be sure you feel love? I have no idea, go eHow that. Just saying.

Okay this blog entry just got much more.. out of control than it was supposed to be. WHATEVER I DO WHAT I WANT

Oh I was supposed to mention, incase you didn't notice, I changed the the old layout to this awesome new one, tho it looks like shit, I know. I'm an lazyass and I never work hard enough with anything I do.

Love can't be todays topic cause I don't knwo anything about love, laidadadaa. That's why I can mention that I'm sick! Again. And that yesterday I had a 6h long video conv. with this one dude on skype, yes. Poor guy went to sleep at 4am cause I'm such a evil person and I made him stay up that long... :'D

Hmm what else what else... It was fucking cold today. Like -30 degrees. What. The. Fuck. Finland.

Yeah and I'm tired. That's about it for today. NO, WAIT. I know you guys hate it when I never post pics, so Imma post some uguu shit I drew yesterday, cause sick otakus do draw uguu shit when they're sick.

Uguu Vallu playing Bounce and uguu Vallu being... uguu?

Uguu Vallu being bullied by a random fruidari and 

uguu Vallu after getting beaten up :'))

Okay yeah, now I'm done, hope you enjoyed your Valentine's Day and hope you got cards / flowers / candy / hugs / kisses, anything that made you happy!
Peace♥
- Niko

Life is cheesy, deal with it!

Haha, I decided I'd write something. I usually never write something when I feel like I want to write cause I know my thoughts just get mixed up and in the end nothing makes sense... Anyway so I wrote down 3 things I'll be writing about, maybe it'll work stuff out.
Let's start off with the first topic, my paper says "Life is CHEESY", okay. So... Idk what to say Haha FAIL, anyway but life is cheesy. I mean really, life is cheesy. Just think about it, all the kinda 'lame' stuff like 'yeah I wish there wasn't war in the world' and blahblah idk like.. Idk, all kinda normal so to say 'cheesy' stuff is actually what life is a lot about. I mean, the world WOULD be a better place without war. Like if everyone could love each other and stuff. Loving each other is fun. and nice. and peaceful. and shit. U know. and and. uh. Cheesy stuff like wisdoms about life andand idk EVERYTHING that people consider normal = cheesy in some grade but so true.
... I sound a bit drunk don't I? AGH whatever not like anyone would read this so yeah really, I don't care.
NEXT TOPIC! Hmmmmm. So I noticed how photographers are much more social and stuff than like.. artists that draw. And that's just stupid. But understandable. I mean artists that draw can be locked up in their own world and hide from the real one, while photographers pretty much have to be out in the real world to survive, cause you can't paint a photo. Still, it's just stupid that so many people have such low selfesteem, they should have classes or something in school on how to love yourself cause really, that will be your most useful weapon in the future; loving and trusting yourself and stuff. Fake it 'til you make it. Mia Törnblom.
And to the last topic, "How smart people are... smart, but still just humans.". Yeah. Topic describes it quite good. How smart people are smart but still just human. I mean, I always respect people older than me or people who I consider MUCH smarter than me (cause they in most cases are.....) but then after a while, I notice that hey, they're still all just human. They also make mistakes. and they don't know everything. they don't know what will happen when we die, how everything started. They might not even know how to use a goddamn phone properly. So yeah, makes them humans after all. Tho I still feel like they're a bit alien to people like me. Stupid people like me. 
Am I giving a negative pic of myself? oh no, you're wrong. I don't actually think I'm stupid li-... Okay well, most of the time, yes I do believe I'm stupid, cause I hate moments that happen if I think I know something, but I'm not 100% sure, and then I'm liek YEAH ofc it's like that ! and then someone eventually finds out or is like Hahahaha Noooo wat u smoking bro? it's absolutely NOT like that! and then I'm like ........... .__. SO YEAH to be on the safe side, I call myself stupid. Then no one can have any goddamn expectations and I can blame it all on the stupidy if something goes wrong <3 I actually love myself quite a bit cause I'm awesome like that, no lis told bro. You wanna hear something else that's also true? YOU'RE awesome. Just as awesome as I am, and I love you for that. And I think you should love yourself for that too. Cause you're simply just that awesome. 
What did I just write? Does it matter? No, I don't think so. I'll leave you bro's and hoe's for nao, go get some snacks and then go sleep. I'm so tired.
Love you guys ♥


- Niko