I hate being as tired as I was today, srsly, everything was just suuuch a pain in the ass and like uuugghh. I still haven't got my PS3, which.. sucks. since I feel like it'll never arrive. He has probably, most likely, fooled me so yay. G'bye 200€, I don't think I'll ever see you again.... ! Okay well I suppose if he turns out to be a scam, my mom will work her ass off to get my money back so AHAHA.
Oh I btw have this list of things I want.. Cause I decided I need to make some kind of priority list to keep track of shit. But it's still really hard to.. prioritize some shit cause.. I WANT IT ALL. NOW. HHNG.
So, things I have on the list in priority order;
You notice I have finally decided to actually get programs such as SAI and Photoshop, since I want to use them legally. I want to be able to sell prints at cons if I want to and work on stuff in photoshop without needing to feel like a criminal.. It's sad tho that everything has to be so goddamn expensive. But I suppose, once you got it you won't really need to upgrade it or get newer versions of it until like.. 20 years later, haha. Idk, but I can just imagine that you get quite far with the things that you find in Photoshop CS 5 or whatever version it is and so on.
SAI isn't really even that expensive, compared to photoshop at least, ahaha. But I think it's worth the price (~50€) since it's my favorite drawing program when working digitally, and I just think it's a really great program and all. Ofc I could use GIMP but.. I just simply hate GIMP ahaha. I think it's a hooorribly confusing program, there's no up and down in it, it just.. is. So yeah. SAI FTW.
Also about the last thing; yes, it's a kind of BJD doll. I have for many years now, ever since Kai got his first one I think, dreamed of having a really tiny one that I can just.. carry around and be cute with. I wanted it to be pocket size and I kinda did want it to be an animal as well, or a human with tail and ears or something... Well, I found a lovely site where they sold mostly animal design BJDs and there I found Robin. People probably think I'm crazy wasting about 160€ on such a small DOLL, but.. Meh, I don't know. Might as well get all these expensive stuff as long as you live at home and don't have to pay rent or buy food yourself. Then it's going to be impossible to ever buy anything anymore really :'D
So yeah. There's a list of things I reallt really want. I wish I could gather money in some other way than just the money I get from my parents every month, and ofc I'll have a summer job during summer, but.. it'd be nice if I'd be more creative, post more art, create my own style or just I dunno, have nice enough art to catch people's attention so that they'd like to buy shiet.
I kinda had plans on making a Panty cosplay for summer 2012, but.. I don't know if I'll have any money over for that, or cons or anything.. How weird, having a completely con free year.. I mean, yeah, the interest is kinda killed, but.. I still have this feeling that I'd actually really want to, I just kinda.. push it away since I don't feel good enough, and it needs a lot of time and money and besides, at the con I'll still have the shittiest time ever since I'll just be sitting in some corner lonely, instead of being a sexy ass Panty. Bleh. But I hope maybe someday still I could go to cons and feel good about it.. I'd really love too. Tho, I suppose I could at least take a visit at some con if I happen to be in Tampere filming as they have Tracon or something..~ Sounds very nice..~
Woohoo. I'm really happy about the sketch I just made, I have this art trade I should be working on, but school and everything just takes up my time. And I don't really feel that creative after a long day in school in front of a computer trying to come up with smart ass ideas in design class, I'm not just good at designing shit.. And I feel really awful spending most of my time just slacking off... I just can't come up with great ideas all the time, so I need to slack off some :'B But I think it's really nice to get to use a new program (Illustrator) and I actually really like it. It's kinda like Flash, yet not. Unluckily I'm not able to install my tablet so yeah.. Tho school has a few ones, but we have to circulate them so, it's not.. really that nice. Oh well.
On Friday I think I actually have some photographing to do, like.. work photographing, so that'll be nice :') Might get a little cash..~
I have a arthistory thing I also need to get done annd.. Oh, we need to read a book for mother tongue. Hömhöm. Yees, I have some stuff going on atm ahah :') Wish I'd have more energy and could do more during the days.. But in school you just have to work on the school thing you're currently doing, and then you get home and you're tired and out of inspiration and bleh.
Uh oh. I think I'm done explaining shit right now :'D
My cat is fucking adorable.
Oh I btw have this list of things I want.. Cause I decided I need to make some kind of priority list to keep track of shit. But it's still really hard to.. prioritize some shit cause.. I WANT IT ALL. NOW. HHNG.
So, things I have on the list in priority order;
- PlayStation 3
- Canon EOS 600D
- Skyrim (I think I'll save up for Skyrim kinda at the same time as I save for the Canon....)
- Paint Tool SAI License
- Alice Madness Returns
- Assassins Creed II
- Assassins Creed Brotherhood
- Assassins Creed Revelations (?)
- Adobe Creative Suite 5.5 Production Premium (I have a reeeeaally hard time choosing what pack I'd like to have, cause.. They usually don't have all the programs I want. I wish you could kinda pick the programs you want, and make an own package. That way, you'd get what you really just need and still get it for much less than buying each program separately.)
- Pipo Doll Robin
You notice I have finally decided to actually get programs such as SAI and Photoshop, since I want to use them legally. I want to be able to sell prints at cons if I want to and work on stuff in photoshop without needing to feel like a criminal.. It's sad tho that everything has to be so goddamn expensive. But I suppose, once you got it you won't really need to upgrade it or get newer versions of it until like.. 20 years later, haha. Idk, but I can just imagine that you get quite far with the things that you find in Photoshop CS 5 or whatever version it is and so on.
SAI isn't really even that expensive, compared to photoshop at least, ahaha. But I think it's worth the price (~50€) since it's my favorite drawing program when working digitally, and I just think it's a really great program and all. Ofc I could use GIMP but.. I just simply hate GIMP ahaha. I think it's a hooorribly confusing program, there's no up and down in it, it just.. is. So yeah. SAI FTW.
Also about the last thing; yes, it's a kind of BJD doll. I have for many years now, ever since Kai got his first one I think, dreamed of having a really tiny one that I can just.. carry around and be cute with. I wanted it to be pocket size and I kinda did want it to be an animal as well, or a human with tail and ears or something... Well, I found a lovely site where they sold mostly animal design BJDs and there I found Robin. People probably think I'm crazy wasting about 160€ on such a small DOLL, but.. Meh, I don't know. Might as well get all these expensive stuff as long as you live at home and don't have to pay rent or buy food yourself. Then it's going to be impossible to ever buy anything anymore really :'D
So yeah. There's a list of things I reallt really want. I wish I could gather money in some other way than just the money I get from my parents every month, and ofc I'll have a summer job during summer, but.. it'd be nice if I'd be more creative, post more art, create my own style or just I dunno, have nice enough art to catch people's attention so that they'd like to buy shiet.
I kinda had plans on making a Panty cosplay for summer 2012, but.. I don't know if I'll have any money over for that, or cons or anything.. How weird, having a completely con free year.. I mean, yeah, the interest is kinda killed, but.. I still have this feeling that I'd actually really want to, I just kinda.. push it away since I don't feel good enough, and it needs a lot of time and money and besides, at the con I'll still have the shittiest time ever since I'll just be sitting in some corner lonely, instead of being a sexy ass Panty. Bleh. But I hope maybe someday still I could go to cons and feel good about it.. I'd really love too. Tho, I suppose I could at least take a visit at some con if I happen to be in Tampere filming as they have Tracon or something..~ Sounds very nice..~
Woohoo. I'm really happy about the sketch I just made, I have this art trade I should be working on, but school and everything just takes up my time. And I don't really feel that creative after a long day in school in front of a computer trying to come up with smart ass ideas in design class, I'm not just good at designing shit.. And I feel really awful spending most of my time just slacking off... I just can't come up with great ideas all the time, so I need to slack off some :'B But I think it's really nice to get to use a new program (Illustrator) and I actually really like it. It's kinda like Flash, yet not. Unluckily I'm not able to install my tablet so yeah.. Tho school has a few ones, but we have to circulate them so, it's not.. really that nice. Oh well.
On Friday I think I actually have some photographing to do, like.. work photographing, so that'll be nice :') Might get a little cash..~
I have a arthistory thing I also need to get done annd.. Oh, we need to read a book for mother tongue. Hömhöm. Yees, I have some stuff going on atm ahah :') Wish I'd have more energy and could do more during the days.. But in school you just have to work on the school thing you're currently doing, and then you get home and you're tired and out of inspiration and bleh.
Uh oh. I think I'm done explaining shit right now :'D
My cat is fucking adorable.
- Niko
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