Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?

Oh yeah, now you suddenly just write in your blog after abandoning all your wonderful readers for forever. yeah, you think you can just.. WALK IN and do that? Yeah? YEAH?
Actually yes, I think I can do that~ MY BLOG AFTER ALL, MUEHEHE
Okay, admittedly, it was a bit mean to tell you why I haven't been around, but the reason is, like I said in my last entry, my computer had been fucking around so I put it on fixing, and it's not done yet, but I've been borrow Valter's comp, with limited internet access not to waste my time. But this morning I feel I have the right to waste some time on my blog cause my bloggu is rabu rabu. Ahaha, what.
Listening to some reeeally random and shitty k-pop atm.. wtf even is this. Ugh.
I had this really annoyingly scary dream last night, woke up 2:30 hoping it to be 6am instead, cause then I could've gotten up but no, i had to go back to sleep with all the creepy shit going on in my head. I noticed my mom was still awake so I went to sleep with her, that's how fucked up i was in the middle of the night. Before I fell asleep I also cried. SRSLY. My god I hate horror movies from now on ;;__;; The dream in it self was kind of stupid but ofc I had to be really like.. daring or whatever, so i totally challenged all the bad spirits and ghosts and monsters and and. yeah, so the dream pretty much ended like.. i had just gotten home and my mom was cleaning and my dog was like lying but it looked like someone was moving her around. My mom said that it was normal, she was walking around by her self, but I insisted that there was definitely something wrong and tried to hold my dog AND OMGF iehusbik That feeling when I was holding her. IT WAS SO REAL. You know if you ever tried holding someone when someone else tries to pull them away? Okay well yeah. And then i tried to pull her loose from the spirit, ghost, demon whatevers grip and ofc it's becomes really angry, or so I think. This is the part where I wake up. SO RIGHT THEN, I WAS IN DEEP FUCKING SHIT cause every fucking monster ever existed HATES ME so bad they just want to fucking rip my brains out. That's what haunting me. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. Okay well yeah. I tried to think of calm shit but they invaded everything I though of and I was so scared someone would pull me out of my bed, or I'd hear some steps or Aserdtgfhuef SHITT i'm flipping right now and ohmygod my cat scared me Fdtyaguiefhojggghh goooooddd. i'll just okay quit thinking..
It's very beautiful outside atm.. I like that~

Okay, let's answer todays queestiooneee~
Um.. i have changed in many ways I suppose? I have probably become less selfish. And more flipped and fucked in the head ahaha. I have definitely become smarter and.. prettier. I have thinner legs, which I fucking looove. I'm a better drawer, tho I still want tgo improve. LOTSOO. Um, well ofc I have ages, and I've gotten new friends and changed schools~ I have definitely also become a whole lots weirder, and I think I might.. laugh more than I used to? I also have more of a life than I used to! Stuff that hasn't changed tho is the fact that i'm still as stressed as before, I NEVER LEARN TO ACTUALLY DO STUFF :''DD fff. Okay but I think I'm handling it better than before? I haven't flipped or started crying yet ahaha. okay that's prolly cause it's not as strict in my new school as it was in my old one.. FFFUUU-. Yes I have indeed also become a bad student .'c Skipping classes and shit,yoyo. ahaha well not really but yeah, we're so.. loose in my new school. It's fucking maaad.

Oh. I think I'm done! Fuck yeah, now I'll maybe try to write some more on my essay before going to school~ OOH and I finished this comic, I want to show it to you already all though it's not the official version cause I had to take a pic with my cam cause I don't have my computer and I have the scanner stuff installed on it but not this one so yyeah. But yeah, here you go~ BASED ON TRUE HAPPENINGS nyahahaha~

Okay peace out gaiis, have a nice day and a night without nightmares~

- Niko