September 30, 2010

Thank You.

Lately I've been getting a lot of 'Thanks' and 'Thank You's, and in my opinion that's the most difficult question you can ask someone. Or well, it's not actually a question, cause it does not contain a ? but still, it's something you in most cases do answer or it'll just be awkward.
To me it's awkward either way, no matter if I choose not to answer or if I choose to answer, cause I have no idea what to really answer. Normal people just answer 'No problem!' or 'You're welcome!' but the answering part always starts bothering me cause.. .. It just doesn't sound right when it comes out of me.
It's like when someone compliments my art, I feel like I'd need to say something more than just 'Thanks' or 'Thank you'. The words just feel.. so empty. So without meaning. Yet so egoistic in a way.
I guess I'm just afraid of falling into my egoism again if I fully and truly take a compliment. That's just stupid isn't it, but I'm still so unsteady so yeah. There's always the risk of falling back in.

I've had a horrible art block these past few weeks, or even months, I'm not even sure. But today I finished a drawing. It's only in black and white, and was first supposed to be made with liners but it ended up pencil way. It's still nice :') It's this dead bird, lying on the ground and there's blood around it and like yeah. Not too realistic but not all cartoonish so mm. 

I don't really know what else to write about, physic test coming up on Monday.

- Niko