such a normal blogpost

Helluu, new update! 
Oh my, yesterday I was on my balcony like in the sunset, with my blanket and shit, watching a movie, it was pure lovely ♥ Also felt like shit yetserday cause.. I haden't eaten about any real food, just like shitty not real food so I was feeling all sick and stuff, but I was okay before I went to bed~
Oh yeah, yesterday, I was in Kokkola, we went on a search for a tv for me, but ended up buying one we had been looking at in Jeppis, I just love it ♥
Just got it rigged up on it's place, tho I have no channels yet cause of my lazy brother, but he promised to work on it on tuesday, better do! But, I can watch movies from my computer, so that's just awesome~

What else what else..
I don't think there's much else going on. Valter got home today, I might go there tonight, probably will hmm aanndd yeah idk. Nothing much. Would like to get on a diet again. And I so want to start doing stuff, SUMMER IS SOON OVER! Gosh I'm scared of strating in a new school. Buhuhuh.
And Kai, we need to team up and draw sometime soon! ;w;
Okay peace out homebro's~ I'll.. go pack or something :'DD
- Niko

Kitty

Hi again, nothing new like always.
Got home from Vallus .. yesterday, friday that is. He went to puntala and I had to go home, miss my dear .. thing. I'm not creative enough :'D ♥
It appears I very easily become down after dark. One song, one tune, one thought, one word, anything, can trigger my downyness, and then I can sit up until like 4AM and cry and just, think everything is so horribly bad ad everything sucks and life is not worth living and just hate myself in general. It's a pain in my ass. And I'm about to feel like shit again.
I hate it when people think I'm.. this, or that. Don't label me, I'm whatever I feel like being at that moment, and I can change any second, become something totally different. Just want to feel comfortable in myself, and that's when I am what I feel like being. 
What's up with this? I was on a diet, until..  I stopped being on a diet *COUGH* and I never, during my diet, thought I looked good, I actually thought I looked WORSE and then now, when I've been eating shit loads lately, I think I look fucking gorgeous. wtf? Why? Anyone?
I should start walking or training or something again... ggaah.


Today I visited my granma and her new cat, Kitty. She's so .. bbaaww.. :''3

nnaaw look at her, sleeping on the fllooorr... ♥

Okay uh, that about that, I feel like there's something else I need to write but, idk. I wanna meet new people..

- Niko

SHOPPING ♥

Ohhh yyyyeaaah for updating once the day has changed, again.

I apparently get down once it get's dark outside.. ?
Today, or well, yesterday I went shopping with my sister, she called it and Adventure, cause we drove to jeppis with my moped and .. yeah. spent a lot of money. :'D

Some of the bags we were carrying around.

All the stuff I bought; a pair of boots that i got for 60e cause the zipper was a bit slow on the other one, a big cozy hoodie from code, a pair of jeans also from code, and yes, sale stuff. Got 2 b hairspray from Halpa-Halli, a owl necklace from Seppälä, a pair of bras and pyjama pants, also from Seppälä and 4 pairs of socks from Kappahl, or Lindex.. idk. probably spent around 200e

a close up on the owl necklace..~

So yeah, that's about that. Tomorrow I'll meet up with Vallu and we'll.. do something, 5 months baby.

-Niko

rolling

Hi, again. Not feeling too well. Like, in my head. Down in the dumps so to say. I'm that awfully often, am I not?
Uh, anyway. Just gonna update on things I haven't updated on.. upload pictures and stuff.. nothing much.


The bookshelf, the tv. Got it done, cleaned my room all day but got stuff fitting into all kinds of holes in my room. 

So as you know, this is what is all looked like before I started cleaning.

Then I threw out all the stuff + the shelf and tadaah! space! .. but a lot of stuff without a place to be.

But in the end, I got everything cleaned up, even my super messy make up table became pretty again, and I also threw away a whole bunch of stuff so that's good. I own too much crap anyway.

So, that about that, haven't got my TV yet, maybe this week or next week. Idk, anytime's fine.

So onto the next thing, as you might've know, last week there was a whole week lasting event called Jakobsdagar / Jaakonpäivät, and my friend from Vaasa, Amanda, came over to join the partying, she stayed friday to saturday and well, most of that time we spent in Jeppis, but sometime 5am on saturday we got home and went to sleep. 

Amanda ~

Vallu, me & Amanda~

Uh after that it's been a bit on and off to Jeppis, and then I've stayed two nights at Valters. My head is being all messed up by all the stuff I've been up too and all the stuff I need to be up too. Gah.

Anyway, we watched Terminator 3 today, nothing special.

And then just some random pictures I took for the blog to blogposts I never wrote cause I'm a lazy ass bitch.

Me being fancy with my glasses, don't try to deny my beauty.

Cosplay, cosplay, tea, cosplay.

And some more fancy glasses ego pics. Grrh~

I think I'm done for tonight, you don't want to hear any more whining from me, I don't want this to end like it did a few blog posts then.. *cough* Tho that was my original intention for this blog, what happened? Oh well..

- Niko

where to put my TV.. ?

Today, I'm going to do something interesting.
You see, I'll be getting a TV for cleaning my room once a week for 3 months, and my room is quite small so I have to move some stuff. My mission today is to empty these two shelves in my book shelf;

and as you might notice, my whole bookshelf is quite stuffed, so moving those to some other place will be quite a hard task.. 

I do believe it's possible but.. still. gah.

Ohhh I wish I could update more often.. Like Kissie or Alexandra (haha they're both named Alexandra..)

.. Uh, nothing else. might update later.

- Niko

SHORTIEE SHORTS

.. I'm a bad blogger. BUT I HAVE MY REASONS for... not blogging.
I've been with Valter for almost a whole week now, so yeah. No blogging CHIIEE. Okay, okay
but i'll try to write something here.. today. Uh.


Umm... I haven't really been doing much, watching movies and juts, chillin. Actually I also watched the newest Harry potter movie, which was kind of a disappointment cause everyone's been like OOH Harry will DIIEEE and well it would make complete sense if he did but *SPOILER ALERT* NO, he didn't. That bitch. But instead he got a cute kiddo. So, i suppose it's.. okay?
uh, yeah, yesterday we actually were in town, um. It's Jakobsdagar/Jaakonpäivät atm here in Jeppis and they have a whole lot of different shows and stuff so, i'll probably be hanging here almost the whole week, at least for the weekend cause then it's like.. awesome. XD And my friend Aamanda might join..  ~
So yesterday, we went to see Parkrock, but we ended up walking around a bit here and there, meeting people and and.. oh yeah, Congratz to Anni, she turned 16 yesterday so, yay~~  i drew her a card but unfortunately I don't have a picture of it, maybe she could take one for me.. ??

and she did.. .'D

umm yeah idk, nothing much, don't really have time to write atm either hahaha cause I have to go.. do stuff. but anyway, short update, love you guys, laterzzz~
- Niko

Sad, drunk & poorly

I don't like myself. at all. I.. Just, everything.
You know when you think you look good, but then you notice you don't actually. You just think so. That feeling when shorts don't fit you, yeah. That's what I'm talking about.
That moment, when you've been eating all day even if you know you shouldn't cause you know how you'll feel, and what you'll think. Still, you do it cause you think that eating will somehow help your down in the dumps mode, like eating will somehow make the undone done, like eating will somehow make you more awesome. Like shit it ever does, and you know it. Still you do it. And your mom thinks your fat. 
That moment when you'd so love being bulimic or anorectic. That moment, when you actually consider it.


And that moment, when you tell yourself  "So what" "what do I care", and you really don't, but somehow, its not helping. Somehow you apparently care more than you want to, more than you know you should. More than... too much.


That absolutely horrible moment when you feel like nothing. When nothing is worth anything. Your life; a total waste. That moment, when you just sit and watch as others grow, get hobbies, live a life, socialize, LIVE. You watch them be humans, you watch them be people. You watch time pass by while you're just stuck, sitting, doing nothing but sitting and watching. You are completely unnecessary, your future is wasted, the point of your life, never even there.
That moment, when someone asks you "Oh, and what do you work with?" and you can't answer, cause. You don't. 


And that moment, when you should stop and let be. Cause nothing will change. You know the solutions, you know the answers, but you don't take action. Babe, you can't continue like this.
-Niko

Just like everyone else

.. For two days now I've been telling myself that I WILL update the blog. But I haven't, surprise surprise.. 
Anyway, i have actually been doing something, thus no blog update. Let's start of with Thursday.
On Thursday I went to Jeppis with Anni, we went to watch the newest Transformers movie, which was surprisingly good! I recommend you go watch it~
As we wandered around waiting for the movie to start we met Tekla, Amanda and Teezo and Tekla joined me and Anni for some.. walking around in HH. Later we also spotter Vallu and Bender~ 

Bender & Vallu ~

Tekla & Anni ~

Oooh, we also met Ylva. Who thinks Cloverfield sucks. :'v

And then sometime around 2AM we got home and I was supposed to update my blog but I was so tired I pretty much went to sleep once I got home..


Okay, Friday. I wake up late to Vallu calling me and I just.. right from the start I felt like shit, I just felt like I had a whole lot of pressure put on me so I angsted, stayed in bed and watched Buffy until we ate and then I took a fast shower before driving to Jeppis (Again) with Anni. We gathered the whole group there to celebrate this little princess;

Johanna ♥

These people were also around to celebrate her~

It was a whole lot fun, somehow, by some weird coincidence *cough* we just HAPPENED to meet Bender and Vallu again, and uh hmm yeah. Around midnight Anni, Janica and Johanna went home, Tekla stayed for a bit longer but I just hanged with Valter and some people he knew, it was fun. Socializing, I mean.
I think it was around 2-3 AM we went back to Vallus place to.. eat and sleep. Cause I really felt like eating something, so we cooked chicken. In the middle of the night. 
Around 5 I think, we started watching a Monty Python movie but we didn't watch for long before I needed to go sleep. So we went.
Next morning, it was ofc raining, so we had to wait like all day before I could drive us home, gaaah. And then I was home like 2 second (I thought I'd have time to update my blog then but nooooo...) and Kai shows up. To plan the cosplay i'm making, buhuuhu. And he just practically lagged here all day. And idk, it was kinda a lame day. :''D


And today.. uh. Nothing much has been happening. Just ate, now Vallus doing his.. beauty thing and I'm updating my blog and after this I'll clean my room. Deal with it.
This just must've been the most least interesting blog entry I have.. ever.. written.
- Niko

Normal day

I've been awfully active lately, haven't I? Yuck. 
Haha no just kidding, just good for me. Tho today wasn't much different from yesterday, I sew, pretty much all day. Almost done with the Kigu, WOOHIE!
I was also invited to my brothers gf's mom's 50 years party but I decided to stay home and work (+ I smelled bad, haven't brushed my teeth in a while and.. the hot waters been down a few days = no shower. But no one need to know, right?.. right?)

Oh my gawd an angry cat.

Tail and ear~

Ear in progress...

AND OMG it's me. :')

Besides sewing I've been reading and finished watching Buffy the Vampire slayer season 1 (how the hell am I able to do so much?). The book I read was called "Lizzie Olivers" by.. someone. It's actually quite good, and .. yeah. I dunno. But I realized it's kinda sad to read book cause in them, anything can happen, anything's possible. Fucking books. I'll write a awesome one one day, you just watch me be awesome... 
Also, I just LOVED the last episode in the first season of BTVS cause.. I just absolutely loved the acting and gah, everything about it, lovely ♥

Right now, I'm watching an anime movie called "Metropolis", I'm sure some of you have heard of it. It's about this girl robot who happens to get together with a boy after him rescuing her from a fire and then there's this bad kid, who works for his "father" who ordered this one scientist to make that girl robot cause I think it's his dead daughter or something anyway, so that bad kids goes for a hunt after that boy who saved the robot girl cause he wants her dead cause he wants his "dad" to love him and only him and I don't know why the fuck he calls him dad but still. Uh and then now there's some underground people who want justice and a lot is just happening. Watch it and see for your self!


I don't think I have much else to say, so yeah. Back to watching Metropolis, cya~
- Niko

Rubber like in Rubbish

Today I woke up from an odd dream. I dreamed, I was preggo, and everyone tried to take care of me cause apparently me having a baby was the best thing ever, so I hid in the basement to be alone. Then I woke up.
I also had another dream that I wont be mentioning :')

Making patterns~

Ah, lovely fabric öwö

Anyway, I've been just, making costumes all day. or well, I also ate delisch .. Vietnamese food? and watched a movie; Rubber

Rubber is a movie made back in 2010, lol. It's actually quite senseless, and they start the movie by telling you, or well, some people in the movie that are audience to.. I'll get to that, Anyway. They have these chairs on a rode, a car drives up, crashes the chairs one by one, then a sheriff gets out of the car trunk and tell you that good movies have "No reason" in them, life has a lot of "No reason" in it and so this movie will continue a whole bunch "No reason".
So there's this audience, in the middle of the desert, pretty much, and there's this nerdy looking guy who hands them some binoculars. They're about to watch a real life non-real life movie through those binoculars about this tire that just gets up and starts killing people. And then that's all there's pretty much to it. + a whole bunch of "No Reason".
This has got to be one of the MOST annoying movies I have ever seen, cause. It was just so.. "No reason", too much "no reason". And the movie in it self is kind of boring too, it's never like really.. intense. But if you feel like watching a quite slow 'horror' movie with a bit of gore and a lot of random shit going on I recommend this. Also if ur bored out of ur mind.


I haven't been up to much more than that today.. Probably gonna go out with my dog in just a second and then continue sewing through the night, must remember to drink coffee ~

♥

I want to have a contest...
- Niko

TRANSFORMERS!

... It's depressing, looking at other people's blogs, they always have such beautiful layouts, like they actually work for the blog to look good. Krhm, me? A lazy person? Stop kiddin!
No but seriously, my patience is crazily bad and I am a total lazy ass, and those two together, not good. I even noticed while filling in pictures with white, I first drew a line around the parts I wanted left so i'd just need to fill in the rest with white but srsly, even then I had hard sticking to the draw around and then fill in, I was so eager to get to the fill in part so I seriously had to really hard concentrate on not starting to fill in before the lining. I'm odd like that.


Anyway, today I got home from Vallu, had a lovely time there ♥ And Anni had received my CD and mine and Vallus T-shirts today, so I went to town to meet her and ended up going to her place to watch both of the Transformers movies, cause she wanted to have someone to go watch the third one with so now apparently I'm going to the cinema on thursday. Transformers are awesome!


The Blur t-shirt we bought are XL, fucking huge, but cute, and they're soft, I so want to sleep in them ♥ And I know someone who just loves big band t-shirts... :')

I look fucking gorgeous, I know

♥

I think that's it for now, I promised my friend I'd start on zi cosplay when I get home, guess I should keep my promise, for this once.. :'D

"... That moment when u think about telling someone something but you don't really thing about doing it but then you do it and then u don't know u did it."

- Niko

MEGUSTA

Helloouu, wonder how long it's been since last time??
Not even gonna check.
I have pretty much.. not much to update about. uh.
Was just thinking of posting some pics from the last few days and explain some shit or something??
Hmm, okay, so you probably don't know that I am making this cosplay for my friends, or wait, I might've told you... actually i think I did, anyway so yeah, I have gotten pretty much all the fabrics too it aaannndddd.. would just need to start making it, but I need to make that kigu first and uufseujdak stupid, cause, I had cut something wrong on the kigu so now I have to redo and it's stupid. but only one part so that's.. cool. and cut the tail.. and ears. uuh anyway.

Kai doing his Malik.. thing. XDD

hhhmmmm so yesterday, I woke up, fixed my sisters internet, went down to sew the kigu, got frustrated and so I took my dog with me and went on a walk. Which ended in her swimming and.. rolling around in the grass? Actually in the end I was also quite soaked.

Then later on in the evening, I grabbed my awesome very shitty fishing stuff and left for Jeppis, went fishing with vallu annnnnnd we got one fish. those bitches. then it got cold so we went back and did nothing much. Nope. Nothing. Much. ... :') okay no but srsly


And today, i'm still here. At Vallus place that is. We went shopping and I got myself a pair of glasses, they're ridiculously cute ♥ Also I bought knee socks, cause.. I'm cool like that.

♥

Besides that we didn't do much, until like.. recently, when we decided to head for town to maybe it and just chill, and so we did. We camwhored like pretty bitches are supposed to and then we went to eat very healthy food. Kebaba. Again. second time I mention eating kebabaaaah with Valter in my blog, interesting.

us, being whorey.

Then, we bought something to drink and sat down on the sidewalk, and as odd as it sounds, people were STARING at us!? wtf, isn't it normal to sit on the sidewalk?? I think it is :''c

POWDERED LIPS OF DEATH. Yeah. HPFD quote. I know.

It was a bit.. windy.

And now I'm here, aaaannnd gonna be another night prolly cause we'll go get hot hihoihihihikwfhj in the sauna okay NO i'm not drunk nor am I high i'm just........ me. atm. yeah. idk. Yeah. Nothing.. more. I guess?


I'm too awesome for my camera to capture my awesomeness.
- Niko