Fucked up mind can really fuck you up.

Arg. This depression is just.. annoying.

It's not depressing nor is it sad, it's just really really a pain in my butt.
And I don't even know where it came from.

Or I might kinda know where it came from but I mean still, come on. what.

I blame it on (thisoneperson) for messing up my life; first I worry about him confessing his feelings to me (if he has any) and me not being able to response to them, then I worry about my friend stealing him cause everyone loves my friend even tho' I didn't even love him or want to be with him. THEN I dunno, his appearance just messed it all up and now I can't get it back on track. 

+ I'm sooooo tired. Man studying is really with the while, at least if you look at the grades but I mean. It kills you, cause you won't be sleeping good, mmhm. So I guess that's also taking down my mood, cause I can't really.. enjoy stuff when I'm tired. I mean, I could look out of the window and be like oh these fall colors are so lovely and and sitting inside in this darkness with candless and purr ♥
No, instead all I see is fucking dark clouds, bad weather, windy shit and like.. rain. Everything is just dark and gloomy, yayayayayaya.

And my computer all 'bitchy sounds FTW' again. I mean, yeah. I understand, cause I mean, you're old dear friend, but couldn't you just stop sounding like a tattooer for like.. 2 seconds!? Burns my ears.

Sorry I'm just bragging about everything, lol :''D

I hate me for hating me. 

-Niko

Red Thread.

I think PowerNapping is the best invetion EVUR. I wonder who came up with it?
I can imagine some smart ass person being like; 'Man, I've been working (= thinkin' of what happens when we die, or where the universe ends, or does God exist. U know, big life questions!) so hard all day! I really need to sleep... I guess I could lay down... and rest a bit...' and then they fall asleep, waking up 15 minutes later feeling like they've slept for hours and they can continue thinking again, EUREKA!

My mom's been to Helsinki for a 2 days now, and she'll be coming home today a bit later on. The first morning my bro' woke up late to school and my lil' sister couldn't eat breakfast cause she can't make her own breakfast.
Oh, did I mention that my brother is soon 18 years old and that my sister is already 13 years old. :')
I love the fact that no one seems to be able to take care of them selves in this family except for me and my parent, hooray!

Anywho. I just had my first Physics test on 9th grade and I'll hopefully be getting it back on Thursday, which is by the way the day when I have another test; civics. And I'm not all that happy about economy stuff so, my ass. I don't know a piece of shit. I was supposed to read to it today but guess what this lazy person was doing? I was looking at awesome people at the 24h comic thing.

Which takes us to the next subject; I REALLY WANNA GO ON A 24H COMIC THING. :'C If you don't know what I'm talking about then lemme tell ya. It's like this.. gathering where people try to make 24 pages of comic in 24 hours. It seems like a really awesome experience + I love staying awake making myself do shit :''D So yeah, if anyone knows when they're gonna arrange something like that in Finland please tell me. Or if you decide to arrange it with your friends, I'd love to join ~

Blargh, anyways, I think I'm gonna continue studying for a while, then take a shower and after all that, I will try to get some sleep. 

Peace,

- Niko