June 27, 2011

Parklife

.. I'm not sure if I dare to return here haha. Sorry, left you guys alone for more than a week even if I promised to update.. << What are these empty promises I keep making!? Well, better ever than never, aaaaa right, right!? .. no? Okay well.
Anyway, with one broken promise I'm sure you wont mind another, they go practically hand in hand! Can you guess? If you guessed I didn't take many pics at the con you were.. RIGHT! Wooh. I did take some but it's just of my friends........ Um.

Kai, doing his... sexy thing?

Reetu and Kai in an apparently very comfy position.. ?

Yeah, that's it. But hey, the con was fun, a bit lonely at times, but I got to see oeple I haven't seen in ages so.. that's always fun :')

I'm actually writing this blog at work on my lunch .. thingy so yeah, have to make things quick!

You know what's annoying? Planning on doing stuff but not doing them. My life. No but srsly. And also, i planned my summer vacation to be.. lazy, and freeeeeeee. But no. It's fucking filled with stress and stupid and I have to work and bsdxjbjs haven't really done anything I've wanted to do and planned to do so far. I finished a pic the other day but that's it and summers soon over. What about all that painting, going fishing, building puzzles, living a free life, maybe go drinking shit do I know, all that .. COOL stuff. What happened?
Also, I've wanted to write in my diary for like forever aka since I last wrote but no, no time. never. ever.

I bought a Blur CD the other day, "Parklife", must buy "Modern life is rubbish" too someday cause I noticed it contains a friggin big amount of songs I like.. :'D Also ordered a XL blur t-shirt, cause they didn't have smaller sizes... Does this mean that only fat ppl listen to blur or that only skinny ppl listen to Blur? Idk.

Me and Valter have our 4 months thingy today, yaaay. We'll go watch KungFu Panda 2 at zi zinema and uh, I'll go sleep over. forgot my toothbrush at home. damit.


Back to shopping photos.
- Niko

June 18, 2011

DESUCON

Hey you guys!
Sorry I didn't have time to update, but I'll see you after Desucon!
Hopefully I'll have a whole new buch of pictures to post :')
Bye~







- Niko

June 14, 2011

Freedom, oh freedom

30 posts and 3 readers, I think we should celebrate?
I don't really feel like writing a blog post, cause my head is just completely fucked right now and my hormones are going crazy, they love me and I love them, we're a happy family.. ♫
My head's fucked cause I'm tired and.. something else, I'm not gonna mention it. Not worth it. and well the other is ofc cause I'm a woman.
Ah listening to Ane Brun brings my ears such a pleasure and it makes my minds peaceful ... ~


Anyway. Normally, I wouldn't be this tired when I have summer vacation considering that I can go sleep like 4AM and wake up .. 5PM if I like to, but this week I actually have work. I'm a poor bastard right now, all out of money, so I decided to get some work and so I did; I'm taking product photos for a company, and some other photos for some.. thing they're publishing, idk. Anyway, the first day, Monday that is, I just took all the photos. 227 or something, can't remember. And now, the second day I've been photoshopping the 57 "chosen ones", got like.. 27 done, half that is. And it was a pain in my butt cause I was so friggin tired, I had a constant headache. Yay.
I went to eat lunch with Valter today, was fun~ He had by the way colored his hair blonde, but it's red now. :')


... Uh sorry, too lazy to add pics. again. dead.
I don't have much more to say, probly gonna.. go get a ice cream, get fat and cry.
Bye.
- Niko



That's good, cause I just absolutely love toilets ♥

June 5, 2011

Shortcut

... I got shampoo in my eye for the first time in a veeery long time. I had totally forgotten how fucking painful it is.
And as chilling here, I caught myself thinking; "What if, my blog would have more readers if I'd have a more positive attitude in my blogposts and not sound like some dead artist that just.. is very cold?" But I don't really believe that that is the problem. Or well, it could partly be, but one problem that probably is more of a problem (what) is that I don't really.. show off with my blog, it's kinda.. "underground"? You get what I'm saying, not lot of people find their ways here cause.. there isn't many ways of finding here, yea, yeah? Tho, I don't really mind the low count of people reading my blog, no. It doesn't matter me really at all, I was just thinking.. Cause I was thinking about something else, almost somehow kinda related (as always, I was thinking about Julia Roberts yesterday). OKAY, back to the negative attitude thing. Cause, I'm not really that negative and.. badass. I use fucking loads of smileys. :'D :'))) XDDDD :''3333 =w= ;AA; ;ww; öwö ÖwÖ öAö etc etc, you see how kawaii nyan I am? Yeah, bow down to me SUCKAASHHH! .. um. Yeah, and I love to laugh in general, I love to smile and I love to be positive. .. wait no that last thing, I WOULD love to be positive, I'm just too.. not positive to be positive, but being positive is a nice thing and I love being positive when ever I am positive. Better.
Except for the no-ways-to-my-blog thing I'm quite sure it also has to do something with that my blog isn't really that interesting, and it's about.. like.. everything. Sometimes, I wonder why the fuck I'm even blogging, cause I have a diary, like shit would I need a blog that no one reads anyways, you know. But I suppose I still have a need to throw out my thoughts to the world, I mean. Maybe someday someone will be browsing this blog, read thro my lame posts about nothing and ZING, come up with something fucking smart.
.. And we all know that will never happen but. Yeah. OR maybe I'm writing a blog to train english? No wait, that doesn't make sense, my diary is in english... what am I trying to get to?
Anyway, would you guys want me to be more.. positive, and you more smileys and all kinda cute whirly tails and shit (KAWAII DESU NEE~~~~~ =öwö=) or just stay the same lame cold (c)old AHAHA) me? .. It's funny that I am asking this cause I know the comment thing will keep on showing (0) :')


You know, I just realized I'm just gonna write this time, not put any pictures, just like in the old days. I am lazy, I know but you'll just have to live with it. I'll just become lazier and lazier as summer passes by... And considering this is the second day of my summer vacation, I think we're all pretty screwed.


Oh yeah, I mentioned I was thinking of something that lead me to thinking of my blog readers. The thing I was thinking of was when I finished school on saturday, I got a scholarship, 2 books by Betty Edwards, something about drawing with the right side of the brain (interesting, right is written with a big r... or is it?) and one of my friends got 50 euro as scholarship. Ofc I would have more use of the 50 euro she got, cause I am fucking poor and she has a job and all, an the first thought that hit me was "SELL THE BOOKS!". And no, I of course didn't sell the books, cause so far at least one of them have been very interesting and I think I could actually learn something from it. So as I was walking back to my room from our sauna I started thinking; who of us would have more use of what we got, in a longer range of time, and yes. Speaking of money in fact. I could, with these books, maybe possibly become an even grater artist and maybe get fuck loads of money while she spent her 50 euro on a game or something and just has a normal job. But then again, she could use the 50 euro to something rreeeaaaly smart that would help her in gaining more money and build up something huge to.. get her even more money. Which would probably leave me to be the poorer one. Nothing of this is ever gonna happen but, I love thinking. .. Yeah. That's what I was thinking about.


AND before that, the reason I started thinking about it (oh boy, chain thinking), was because as I mentioned, I am fucking poor, I have seriously run out of money, and I don't have a job and probably wont get one and selling kigurumi's went down the pipe, not that there wouldn't be people interested, it's just that it became way more expensive than imagined, for many reasons, so it wouldn't work. But I got in one order, and I shall make the kigurumi for her to see how much fabric I used, how the shipping works etc and maybe someday, it'll be possible, but not now. Everyone makes mistakes but it's okay, we can learn from them.
I'd really like to be able to sell art, cause that's what I enjoy doing and that's what I do best and being able to sell something you've done always feels great. I just don't dare go sell to an artist alley, I don't feel like I'd fit in there. I don't feel like I'm good enough to be there. And selling art on the internet when ur not famous doesn't work either.  I'd love to be at least a bit more famous than I am. It would be just super. I'd so take advantage of everyone, HAHAHA. Okay no, I'd love all my fans and have lovely contests for them and and meet them and love them and care for them, just like a second mother. .. That wounded a bit creepy didn't it.. ? <<
But yeah, I am very proud of all the 185 subscribers I have on youtube and the 66 watchers I have on deviantART and I love them for loving me~
Just now I realized, I probably have to skip a whole bunch of cons. I'm at least going to Desucon, and hopefully Animecon. I'd love to go to Tracon, considering who is going to be there but I just.. don't know.. And no more cosplays for this year either.. All this is just.. sad. Hope I'll make it through somehow.


Hmm, there was a lot of other things I were supposed to write about today but I can't seem to remember them now..
Oh, have a nice summer vacation you all, whenever yours starts~ I have plans on drawing and painting a lot and reading a lot of books and also finish that puzzle I have hidden under my bed. And ofc be with Valter~
What about you? 


I'll quit now, go cry or something. Search for food and movies. G-
- Niko

June 1, 2011

Working hard, hardly working ?

Good morning!
It's soon 5AM and I am... here. Writing this. Got home from my friends place just about a half hour ago, and now I'll write this, maybe update my diary and continue on Project 9! Sleep, who needs that bullshit?? :'D
Uh so, yesterday I went to Vaasa with Valter, to walk around in town and then go visit his granma and granpaaapaaa. 

He bought a new bag, some hair color and bracelets while I got myself a dress, some hairpins and new earrings (matching to the dress!) Also I got a new jacket the other day~


So as I told you I was at my friend, Kai's house, I was there to trace some pictures and I unfortunately don't have a light table yet so I got to borrow his. We had decided on staying up all night, working hard, but he ended up getting so tired, he sent me home and went to sleep. Yeah, I'm getting quite tired myself but gah, I'll sleep whatever leaves for me to sleep.. 



I don't really have much else to say. Oh, tip; don't ever even try to draw 50 pages of comic in 3 days unless you have like a written story done already or something cause else... it just wont work, and it'll get shitty as hell.
Also, that was a reminder to myself.. <__<
-Niko (yay, short post...)